The return!!

I'm finally back! I have finally found the time to sit down and write even though I should actually be studying! I know I've been gone for ages. The past term has been the busiest ever. The problem basically was work... While before my manager would only give me 7 hours a week he now "remembered" that I am a very good waiter (one of his favourites now, he hits on me as well...) and gave me 27 hours a week. You see a lot of people quit over the summer because a lot of them were graduating students that were leaving. During September everyone that was left at work was working very hard. A couple of people found this pressure too much and quit. A couple of new managers were transfered to our Pizza Hut and they were not good! No one liked them, they stole tips from us and work ethic was shit! We were still working very hard to cover for people and my boss wouldnt hire any new staff. All this made a couple more people leave and then we were in deep shit!! Problem was I had given a very wide range of availability because I thought why not have a bit of randomness during the week? I wont be working that much... Yeah rite!! As a student I'm only allowed to work up 20 hours a week and from then on I get taxed. Well I was working from 5-10 hours more than I was supposed to. I waited as the weeks passed hoping things would change but they never. All I could wait for anymore was this term when I could change my availability. Also from the end of September to about a week ago I have never had a weekend of. Just maybe one Sunday or another Saturday I called in sick... While I had days off during the week, I was sitting in the library studying. All this made me really tired both physically and psychologically. Even though I did have weekdays off, my conscious and subconscious know that the weekend when we rest. Because I had no weekend off this drained me more and more... Friends were complaining that I wasn’t spending time with them and that I had disappeared. I really don’t know how I made it. Besides all this I had love problems as well! I was at a very low point a while ago. Everything brought me down and started feeling like depression because I didn’t know what the problem was and how to solve it but after my holidays in Greece I came back got organised, put everything in order and started feeling better about my self.

Let me try and sum the first term is as few words as possible:

Firstly I fell for this German guy who graduated from my university last year. He found me on facebook and we were exchanging messages all summer. Well long story short, when the german guy came back to uni he got back with his ex- boyfriend etc. We met up a few times and he’s very nice but I will not be the backup or number 2 for anyone. He told a friend of mine that he would definitely be with me if he didn’t have a bf. Well thank you very much! Was devastated when I found out about the ex. Took a while but got over him. There’s a lot more to the story but I don’t wanna write it... There’s no point.

The person who helped me get over him was this new Greek boy at uni. You see at first I was not attracted to him even though he is quite handsome and a lot of people fall for him, baddly! Then about mid-Novermber he came out to me! There I felt a connection. He reminded me so much of me when I came out that I felt I had to protect him from any harm, teach him anything that I have learnt. Make him feel comfortable. That’s also when I met the real him! He was a totally different person. No more shield to hold up and repel people. He let his guard down and let me in. He’s a very close and dear friend. He must feel very comfortable with me because he gets very close and sends me so many mixed signals. At one point this confused me. A lot! I didn’t know what he wanted off me and I didn’t know what I wanted off him. I must admit there was and still is a lot of sexual tension between us. Maybe that’s the problem... Anyways we ended up kissing one nite and it was really awkward afterwards but now he likes another guy so things are ok!

All this love business and falling for people is so tiring!! I’m so happy I do NOT have anyone on my head for the first time in months!! I have too much uni work to focus on and a man now would actually be a nuisance. I’m so sick of being sad and the drama and having to read the signals and being confused and overanalysing things and getting nothing back in the end. GAWWWWD! I think it mite be a while before I start thinking about someone else again.

The other noteworthy thing to mention is the 3 new friends I’ve made this term and we are all really close. One is the greek guy, I’ll name him GreekPsycho! Like American Psycho! Get IT! .... :S Well he studies psychology and is a bit bonkers so I guess that suits him :P Next person is this lovely lovely Cypriot Lesbian from Limassol where I am from. I’ll name her Lezzie. Her and GreekPsycho both study psychology and it’s their first year here. I adore her and thats a big thing for me to say about a lez! ;P Only joking! Last but not least is this over-reactive, over-dramatic, over-sensitive, over-weight greek girl from Athens. She is very nice though just a bit too much at times... I shall call her Nina!

Oh Athena is pregnant once again and she is keeping it this time. I’m going to be the godfather! Cant wait! I really want it to be a boy! She is splitting up with her boyfriend as well as he is an angry drunk and he gets out of hand sometimes. Not with Athena but he destroys anything that comes in his way including TVs, laptops, mugs, plates etc...

One week in Athens was just what I needed rite now. I had a great time and here are a few photos. I spent it with GreekPsycho, Lezzie and Nina.

This is me in a rough-ish area in Athens with some very cool graffiti!

This is a picture from one of the really old Athens University buildings.

This is like the central square in Athens called Sintagma square. Very nicely decorated in xmas

And this is I think where parliament is right opposite Syntagma square. There's guards in front dressed in the national Greek army uniform.

I also went gay clubbing in Athens to a club called S-cape. It wasnt actually too bad! Although I did get hit on by 2 much older men. They weren't even attractive... One asked me to sleep with him and the other gave me a handshake and left his number in my hand :S

Well this is it for now. I’ll try and update as much as possible if anything exciting happens. I should have more free time this term, especially in a week or two when I give in my assignments. See ya!! xo xo GG (Gossip Gay) :P


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Happy Holidays and Happy Birthday!!

Hello everyone!! First of all I want to wish everyone a Merry Xmas and Happy Holidays!! It's been a year since I've started writing my blog so Happy Birthday Blog!!! I know I've haven't been writing in ages... I've just been through so much with work and uni and friends. I've had no free time and I've been working soooooo much, I just go home, exhausted and sleep... I'm with family today and 2morrow and then I'm working every single day until next Sunday when I fly to Greece for a week's holiday. Things are changing next term with my hours at work and I will be more organised so I'm hoping I will write a post soon about all my happenings and whatnot! Once again have a great time this festive period and try and behave ;) I know I wont =P


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The final year!

My final year at uni has began and it is busier than ever even though I have a lot more free time! I have been meaning to write a post but I havent got any internet at home yet so I'm waiting for that to write a proper post at the comfort of my house. Internet should be up and running in a week or so. A few things have happened with the love life but not too important. The quest for a boyfriend is still going. Why cant someone I like, like me back huh?! Or when I'm so close it goes away?! Or why are the men, that I used to like, after me now that I dont want them anymore?! Grrrr!! I'll leave u with that and hopefully will write here soon. See ya!


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Another summer ends... a whole new year starts!

The last post’s events, that were going on during June, were some of the most exciting of my summer. The rest of the summer went by pretty quickly. With me working long hours n then crashing in front of the TV or at my friends’ house for drinks... A few more interesting things DID happened though...

Firstly Athena, my 26 yr old hag, managed to get pregnant! I was with her when she was doing the test and it was definitely positive! Her majesty doesn’t like using condoms and she just takes the pill! The same pills which she skips some days because she forgets to take it. Well it was kind of expected that this would have happened sooner or later! Of course I gave her loads of shit about it and  then stood by her. She had an abortion in the end. Her boyfriend was ok. He kind of wanted to keep it but was backing her up with whatever she wanted 100%. Thing is she can’t have a child now coz she has a lot more to do in her life and she can’t support it financially. Or if she could it would cost her a lot. That’s over with now though and Athena feels good. Her boyfriend is fine with this as well and she even told her mom and she ended up being ok with the matter as she had gone through the same when she was a lot younger n stupid! Dramaaaaaaa!!

That’s that and I almost had sex with Aer... Yeap! I fell for another Jamaican! Thing is we were drunk and we started kissing and touching... I stopped it because we are friends and I don’t want to lose Aer as a friend. Aer’s old friend became his boyfriend and now they aren’t talking.  I don’t want to end up like that. I can feel something between us. Even now after a couple of months but I guess we’re both suppressing it for friendship. It’s all good though. We were both understanding,  and agreed that  it was the right thing to do!
On to more tragic news. I kissed a girl that had swine flu and I liked it! I know, swine flu, old news! I didn’t know at first and she was really really ill after a few days. I was thinking of going to a doctor but was too busy and then I saw that I wasn’t showing any symptoms so I guess I didn’t catch it! It was a good kiss though... She’s a co-worker at Pizza Hut and we were drunk...

It’s a good thing I remember when I’m drunk coz I would have had a very forgettable summer... Oh! I just remembered. I also went to my first pride on July 4th. London Gay Pride! That was a lot of fun! The pride march was fun and guess who I saw. The Brazilian guy from the last post! I just knew I was gonna see that guy again! He was dressed in drag and marching and waving his hand. Came gave me a kiss and then he was like “call me!” I still haven’t called... :P There was loads of shirtless people (of course!) and it was like a lovely rainbow gay river flowed through Soho. I mean it’s like that every day but on gay pride it was maybe more like a waterfall than a river :P It was a very nice day but I actually got a bit of hay fever on that day and wasn’t in the best mood. Me and Aer were going to see Lady Gaga in Heaven but we were just too tired by the end of the nite so we headed back home. Especially after seeing the huuuuuge line outside!

 

Sexy rainbow flag!

This picture is taken in Trafalgar Square. I'm not sure what this building is but it had the rainbow flag on it and I thought it was cool!

Cool costumes!

 

Last but not least the sexy Selfridges boys strutting their stuff!

Anything else happen...?! Oh! I saw Cascada at Heaven! That was a really nice show and her songs are fantastic. I pulled an English boy that nite :P He wanted to come back home with me and he was a bit weird so I kinda ditched him :S I met another very very sweet guy from Syria but apparently he lived in Dubai and he was only there on holiday. Also Aer introduced me to another friend of his who at the end of the nite got my number of Aer and sent me childish messages that he liked someone and he was talking to him and trying stuff but wasn’t sure and then he was like, oh its you im talking about... I mean that’s no way to chat up someone! We used to do that in high school!

So yeah that’s my summer! I’m going back to the UK tomorrow. My holidays in Cyprus are over and I can finally get back to work, uni and what feels like my real home now. Had a fun time at the beach but its time for work now. I’ve missed my friends and colleagues so I’m looking forward to going back! I want to get back into my old routine! I feel out of place here and stressed out because I’m thinking of all the things I have to do but I have to be in the UK to do them. I also have to move to the new house so that’s going to take a day or so! I hope there’s internet... Anws enough babbling, its the anxiety talking/writing.  See you guys!


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Doing it the Asian way...

Look at this greek god! Isn't he gorgeous?! Those blue eyes...

Hello there! So I left off at Britney’s concert. Well the week after that we planned a lot of going out as Syke was leaving for Cyprus. On the Tuesday we went to the Black Cap gay bar in Camden Town. It was quite fun! They got me drunk and made me sing karaoke. I sang “Like a Virgin” with Syke n the DJ goes “You’ve failed to convince me boys...” Hah! I found out that the ex goes there as well but that is another story... At the end of the nite we met this guy named Paul. Paul looked like a cool dude but he was hiding something. He’s just one of those people that I felt wasn’t completely honest... He wasn’t very clear about his sexuality even though he was in a gay bar and I could feel he was lying about past relationships... Anyways, while we were leaving we arranged to see Paul the next day at Heaven.

Wednesday night arrives and I get ready to go out. We arrive in London and queue up for Heaven. In line is an ok looking latino guy and these other older men who obviously wanted to have sex with me coz I just talked to one and then they were all over me asking about my piercing and my tattoo and touching me and one of them called Enrique(ole!) wanted to play with my chimichanga! Its fun provoking the oldies but they deserve it sometimes because they act all pervy! Not all of them

of course! I don’t want to condemn older guys. I’m not one of those people because I know I will be in those shoes at one point but perverts whether young or old are iggy! Anyways inside the club I ended up kissing the latino guy in line. I found out later on that he was Brazilian! Mmm!! At the end of the nite he gave be a goodbye kiss, pulled my phone out my pocket n wrote his number down. I never called but I did have a weird feeling that I would see him again... Heaven finished at around 3-4 and we had time to spare before the train stations opened up so Paul took us to this 24 hour cafe and we had a very nice and warm breakfast! Nothing better than greasy food to sober you up! Had a weird convo with Paul. He was being all macho n stuff and saying he can have anyone he wants n that he could charm me and blah blah blah. I was like, “You can’t charm me but I can charm you ;)” and he was being a typical fuckin top pretending to be the straightest man in the world. Whatevaaa! He was saying that I had a nice ass after when I was walkin n I was provoking him as well. Whos charmin who now?! Hun u don’t know who ur messing with!! Snap!!

So a couple of days after on the Friday me, Aer and a girl friend of ours got a bit tipsy on the train on the way to London and started to kiss each other... :S I’d never kissed Aer before but I have to be honest I did feel there was chemistry between us even before the kiss... So we go to the Black Cap and afterwards Paul recommended we go to a gay Indian club. Who knew such a thing existed?! Well it does and I think it was called club Kali. It opens once a month but apparently theres more events and clubs. On the way to the club Paul and I kissed on the bus. The ol’ladies looking were maaaaad... It was just a thing of the moment.

The club was good. I’m not really into bashment and Indian music but it was ok. People dancing and drinking! Boy did I make an impression. Apparently I must look very attractive to East Asians as I kept getting compliments and looks! 3 notable ones... A promoter outside the club was driving me craaaazy for my name and phone number. He was good looking but I gave him false details :)After a while he asked if he could kiss me

and I happily accepted :P Later on when we were out and the club had closed for the nite another guy kept saying how hot I am etc... He was 29 but looked 20, had a boyfriend of 3 years and his friends were on the look out so he couldn’t do anything. I suggested we go into a corner. At first he said no but after a while he said he couldn’t resist so we went into the corner and kissed. He was a good kisser for a little guy. He got really excited and went “Look what you’ve done to me!” and showed me his semi-erect penis o_O. That was that and I gave him a wrong number as well. Dont wanna be a home wrecker and I’m not into smaller guys :p (picky, picky!!) The last incident was a few minutes later with Paul’s roommate. He’s a really nice guy actually. He was asking me for chewing gum or something and I was like come and get it. So he did! Nice kisser as well if I recall correctly. A guy driving buy was honkin his bloody horn because of his disgust of seeing 2 guys kissing. I just gave him the finger n closed my eyes! Weird how I got away with that...
What a nite! Pulled 5 guys! Woo! So much success! It’s good though! It boosts my confidence which I never used to have. Being drunk helps too! Makes me a lot bolder :P (obviously!) Until next time my lovelies! xo xo! ;)


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Queen B!!

Admittedly my title has been inspired by the renowned Gossip Girl! I have started watching it about a week ago and I have to say, I luv it!! I have already watched the first season and I’m on the 2nd! It’s soooo good and I have fallen in love with Penn Badgley! I find him very attractive. Dare I say more than Chase! Even though I am a sucker for blue/green eyes I’m also a sucker for dimples! Mmmmm! Enough dreaming though! Last week I had PRK laser surgery. I was gonna update the blog earlier but to be honest I couldn’t read the fonts very clearly for a few days and also staying in front of a laptop screen gave me a headache n made my eyes sore! The past couple of days my vision has been, dare I say, perfect! I’ve read other people take ages to heal but I guess its because they had a higher degree of short/long-sightedness.

Last post I left off at the end of year party. Well the next day after having very little sleep and no mood at all, I headed off to London. It was 13th of June and the day of Britney’s Concert! At least I had something to look forward to. I went there with my sister and 2 cousins. Bought a couple of ridiculously overpriced souvenirs – hey its Britney k?!- and headed inside the O2 arena. I had been here before when I came to see the Spice Girls :$ but once again the huge arena made a very big impression. It’s magnificent inside. We found our seat waaaaay up high. Britney would look quite tiny but thank the lawrd for digital zoom! There was loads of people and of course the majority were gays. Wooo! It was like bloody Gay Pride in there! Not a lot of cuties though or at least where I was sitting. Where I was sitting it was boring! I wanted to get up and dance but everyone around me was borin n motionless! However I did really enjoy it and my sister and cousins took a lot of pictures. I wont talk about the songs and shit coz Britney’s concerts were soooo last summer and you’ve probably read about them again and again. Oh Ciara opened Britney’s concert in the UK. She was really good n looked hawt n sexy! Put some pictures up for u to see!

  

Look at sexy Ciara! She put on a very good show!!

She even used a wip!

 

Some people doing Circus tricks before Britney came on stage.

 

The Queen B herself as she descended from stage!

Before Britney came out there was this really disturbing video by Perez Hilto. It was a bit weird to be honest... Check it out if you haven't

Later that nite I was asked to go out with Aer n Syke but I couldn’t make it in the end... Apparently it was one of the best nites ever and Syke even found himself a boyfriend! Also Syke got told of by security twice because he was giving the guy a BJ! Well Heaven does have a movie room which sometimes shows porn so I guess it could be expected even though Heaven is not really that kind of a gay club. The “relationship” with the hot Brazilian boyfriend didn’t last long though as Syke was going back to Cyprus and he had to leave the cute boyfriend behind :(
See ya next time!! You know you love me! xo xo! Gossip Boy ;)


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Another nite, another heartbreak...

So I left off at the eventful weekend after arriving from Amsterdam. A couple of weeks after that there was an End of Year party at the uni. What a nite! Entering the venue I see Chicken! He hugs me n pecks me, I mean kisses me, some small talk ensues and then I head off to the bar to get a drink! I reeeeeally needed one! I turn around to look for my friends that were with me and I see him! My heart skipped a beat! Chicken’s housemate Prettyboi was there. Those blue eyes were staring at me and once again we locked eyes for a few awkward seconds and then came to my senses, looked away and ordered my drink... I swear that guy must see something in me. Isn’t it weird that whenever I see him I just eliminate everything around me and just stare and I feel he does the same. Grrr!! It’s annoying that nothing is happening! I guess I shouldn’t complain though if I’m not making a move, I shouldn’t expect much.

The thing is with me, I can’t remember if I’ve said this before, probably have, I like my men to come to me. Maybe its an insecurity, maybe vanity-pride, I dunno! Maybe its a Freudic complex I have developed over the years of being alone and nobody wanting me or liking me until now of course :P You see I don’t like being the hunter, I like being the prey. Also with guys I wouldn’t like to make a move, or a big first step and then be turned down. Oh no no! I want to turn THEM down. Maybe its a fear of rejection? I really don’t know. All these things always go through my mind but because I have seen that men DO approach me and talk to me without me doing anything sometimes, and some of them are lookers too, even if I really like a guy the only thing I mite do is discreetly provoke him or give him The Look! I know most, probably, want sex but hey we’ll get there. So if they make the first big step then I make more subtle moves and they’re mine without me doing much or being rejected! Guys that I don’t like or that perv on me I just ignore or slowly just remove my self from their sight! Some try and follow but they get the message sooner than later ;)

Hahaha!! Something funny happened in the middle of writing this. I wrote all the above and then left home to go to a cousin’s birthday party and after that I joined my parent’s at a posh neighbour’s house for dinner. While I was having my dinner my gaydar went off like crazy! Something camp this way comes! Low and behold, there he was! Nice guy with a lot of Cypriot features (meaning a lot of hair!) and a very charming smile! I was sure he was gay! I tried to give something off to see his reaction. The neighbour who owned the house was his godfather and he introduced us. I was being very friendly and charming and he was as well. He was asking what I do in the UK n where, you know the usual. He was saying that he goes to this Greek place in Soho, if I knew where that is, to which I didn’t reply just nodded. Of course I know! Its gay central in London! Ding ding ding! He was asking where I go out. I did want to say Heaven club but I was in a hurry to go home n my mom was there so I avoided the subject just in case and I just said Fabric. After a few minutes of thanking the host, he was sitting on the sofas and I headed out to go home. Half-way down the corridor he gets up and shouts “Bye TroubldMnd. Nice meeting you” Yeah I bet it was! I just grinned and left. You see that there!? Thats what I’m talkin about in the paragraph above! I even skipped a little on the way home (thats soooooo gay...but i luv it!) That to me means hey I like you and I want more. There is no one that camp and that good at the same time who would care of saying goodbye to a person he just met when he is halfway outside the house! If it was under different circumstances I mite have done something more but alas, I am in Cyprus, one of the many islands of Homophobia, plus I wanted to go home :P

Ahhh, I love digressing! Something always comes up. So where was I? At the end of year party. Well to make things short and simple as I have already written enough. This nite was a very sad nite indeed. I saw OB at they party and he was talking to me again and being sweet and touched me gently on the chin saying I’m cute but that was it. That broke my heart even more! We went in to dance but I lost track of him. I really wanted him, still, at this point even after what he did. The nite passed by quite quickly but the end was the worst part. You see as it was the End of Year Party and they had a couple of sad songs playing at the end which I don’t really remember. I think the last one was Aerosmith – I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing. Oh my gays, can you say “drama/flood”. All the third years around started crying and hugging and it made me realise that I would lose OB as he was graduating along with Prettyboi. Everyone I liked was leaving! I didn’t cry but I did feel like shit. I decided that I wanted to say goodbye to OB and just forget about him. I searched high and low but I couldn’t find him anywhere. A lot of people started leaving and after of like an hour of searching I gave up and sat on a bench with Noodle looking at the stars feeling horrible. I did want to cry but my eyes were dry. I just sat there gazing into space thinking things in my head over and over and trying to convince myself that something better would definitely come along but I still felt sad. I just really wanted to say goodbye. That way I would let go but it never happened... Crazy Syke came over n started saying his bullshit so I left and went home listening to Unbreak My Heart by Toni Braxton...


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Feels like insomnia!!

Its really early Saturday morning and I have just arrived from Amsterdam. The nite before I only slept about an hour in a hostel in Amsterdam in a smoking room(not a bedroom) full of cigarette and weed smoke. This is once again due to the horrible planning of the girls and we had no beds to sleep on at nite and this was the only room we could stay in... I would have tried and slept a bit more if I had known I would stay awake for at least another 24 hours, giving us a grand total of 48 hours of hardly any sleep and heart in pieces!

Arriving back home I had stuff I wanted to do and get ready for the big nite ahead. As soon as I got home, I made a list and went shopping and on my way there made a quick stop at the hairdresser’s for a haircut long overdue! You see that nite I had a very formal birthday party and afterwards another birthday party, completely different, at a gay club in London.

So I got everything ready, unpacked and slept for like 2-3 hours. Got ready for the dinner. Wore a dark grey suit with very thin white stripes going down, a nice dark stripy shirt and a white tie. I have to say I looked quite nice! The dinner party was held at my university’s dining hall and it was fantastic. The reception was on a balcony and white and red wine was served! Then dinner in the dining hall with planned seating! I was on a table with a couple of my future housemates, a lovely funny queer and a couple of the birthday girl’s friends and this beee-atch polish girl whom I hadn’t spoken to since last year because she started uni, got in the cheerleading squad and suddenly got all diva(Snap! Snap! Snap! Mmmmmmhhm!) on everyone’s ass .

That's me n the biyatch.

Now she is apparently trying to atone for her sins and trying to make friends. She started talkin to me about boyfriend problems and shit and exchanged numbers and then was calling me to meet up for coffee and wanted to have a joint with me o_O? Anyways ‘nough bout her. The queer guy. I had heard from the birthday girl before that he fancied me. Thing is hes a very nice guy but it hasn’t “clicked”. I haven’t felt the “click” and if I don’t then I’m not interested. He’s not bad looking. Quite nice I would say, tall and funny but no “click”! I just don’t feel there’s chem... He was kinda trying and we had a good laugh but I left it at that because I had to go catch the train to London for the next par-tey! I wonder how the nite would have ended if I had stayed...

Went to London with Aer and there we met Syke and a few more queers. It was a lezz’s birthday and they decided to celebrate it at G-A-Y @ Heaven. It was my first time at Heaven. Looked nice and had great music. I just remembered, if I am not mistaken, Kate Ryan was performing at Heaven that nite. I remember hearing her sing Ella Elle L’a. Most people didn’t recognize her but I did and this only one song I know. Check it out its really nice!

So Aer invited a friend of his to come along as well, lets call him OB. Hm.. I just went through my posts and realized I never talked about Chicken’s party. Gawd! Another long story there... I’ve neglected this blog too much! Ok quick recap of things missed!

Went to Chicken’s little soirée! Pretty housemate was there playing the piano. So dreamy... Lots of eye contact and he sat on me to take a photo. Weird situation really, aer n syke were there too. He asked me what my name was. Come on are u kiddin me? Chicken is his housemate, he must have told him about me and that he likes me. Chicken spreads goss like swine flu on humans! :P Anyways. Had a couple people asked me if I liked Chicken. Had realised it was a trap so I played the “He’s just my friend” card. Met OB that nite who confessed later on that Chicken put him up to asking me if I fancy him. Oh btw few days later Chicken talked to me on MSN and asked me if I wanted to have sex with him. I politely declined and played the friend card once again. He’s found someone else now, phew!

So thats the recap. Back to Heaven! We were dancing n drunk, having loads of fun and OB was hitting on me. He’s a good looking lad from Peru so I asked Aer if he was single. He said yes so I thought ok, next chance I get I’ll pull him :) We kissed eventually! Very nice looooong kiss. Kisses to be exact... He was being very nice and gentle. Even gave me a few hickies. Tee-hee :P I had to sit down a few times due to my injured knee. I had a really good feeling about OB and was really really in the mood for a BF and since I couldn’t get Chicken’s housemate I was on the look-out. My only problem is that I fall for people just like that! I know I’m stupid but OB kept being helpful and sweet

so I was actually, within minutes, falling for him! At one point I felt sorry for everyone coz when I stopped dancing they did as well so I shooed them away! Aer stayed with me and after restin the ol’ knee for a while we went back to the dance floor! Syke was grinding with someone so we left him at that and looked for OB. I couldn’t see him anywhere and then he caught my eye. Bitch was dancing with another guy and then next thing I know they snog and the guy was fugly too! Argh!! I just wanted the earth to open up and swallow me! Betrayal! I was devastated. Couldn’t believe it. Why do that? Why send all those signs? Why hold my hand. Why be sweet to me? Why hold me by the waist like we’re together and then do that? Afterwards I saw him looking for us but I just stayed where I was dancing and left him there looking. When he did find us he came back for more and I did give it to him I have to say. I know that I shouldn’t actually if he was playing me like that but it made me feel like I was worth coming back to, so I succumbed to him and my passion for a kiss...

I’m over this whole story now though. At the end of the nite he didn’t even give me a goodbye kiss and I still had a long journey back home having to wait for the train from Waterloo Station at 7 in the morning contemplating what I did wrong...? I later found out from Aer that OB has a lot of insecurities and just has to, has to, has to kiss someone any night he goes out because he feels that he’s ugly and no one likes him and he can’t find anyone decent! Join the club! Jeez woman! Oh n also Aer asked him about

the dude he was kissing and he kept denying it until he gave up and told him that it was just a random dude and asked him not to tell me!
WTF?!?! That means that there was something there but maybe he was waiting for me to make a move. There have been a few awkward meetings after that night at Heaven but nothing more... I need to grow up. Stop falling for the first guy I see or kiss. It’s just that I want a relationship so bad. I’ve never had a proper loving relationship with mutual feelings with a male! I shouldn’t let desperation get the best of me though. And with this I leave you once again! Back in a couple of days! See ya!!

P.S. Stop by Confessions of a Muscler and give the guy a nice word. He’s been tryin to find a good guy for ages and now that he finally did he’s just left him. I feel for ya mate ;)


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I AMsterdam!

Finally! I’m back in Cyprus and relaxing. Have been putting off writing in the blog for too long so I decided to sit down and write about eeeeeeeeverything and then post it in bits. Got a nice tan! Mmmmmmmmmhm! Been to the pool and the beach. Came out to a few more friends that I wanted to be honest with. I’m sick of lying to them when they ask about girls n stuff after having accepted myself and being ok makes it a lot harder to lie for some reason. I just cant do it as well as I used to when I was my old closeted self livin in Narnia! I wanna write some more stuff about coming out but I’ll leave them for another post. When I get through the entire load I have to write about the summer.

So we booked our tickets to Amsterdam for 5 days during the last week of May, right after exams! Ah bliss!! Cherry was the one that did most of the searching along with Foufou. Was a bit annoying as they didn’t really ask for anyone’s help and we ended up booking a youth hostel in Noordwijk, which is a beach town an hour away from Amsterdam! Gawd! Women! ;) We even ended up paying a bit more than a few deals I found online with 4 star hotels... Anyway let’s just say that was ok. We arrive in Amsterdam and take the train to the sister hostel in downtown Amsterdam, drop our bags n start touring! We follow Cherry and Foufou around for 2 hours in search for the Grey Area. As I have heard of a red light disctrict I though this grey area was something similar having something special to show. After loads of walking, asking and losing our way we reach the infamous grey area! Guess what it was! A bloody coffee shop, smaller than a shoebox that sold already rolled up joints and not weed by the gram. It was supposedly one of the best and oldest coffee shops. Bullshit!! Found loads better afterwards! Grrrrr! This frustrated me and the rest of the girls. Oh btw. It was me, coco, cherry, foufou, samara, asa and noodle.

 This is me kissing an astronaut dummy in the Space Expo in Noordwijk :P

When we went to the youth hostel later that day we find that our 7-bed bedroom was actually a dorm kind of room with 10 or so bunkbeds. It was a shock but really what did we expect from a hostel? I knew it was weird when I read the email saying that there was a 7-bed bedroom. Cherry n Foufou where ok with it, or so they said – I saw the look of horror on their faces as they opened the door n saw a fat guy half naked snoring like one of those road drills! They were acting as if everything was ok because as they said they slept in dorms like this in boarding school. Asa and Samara especially were not happy. There was sooooooo much bitching going on, especially next morning when the girls woke up or should I say stayed up due to the loud drill going on all nite! I on the other hand slept like a baby, I knew the army would come in handy. Thats how it was was in the army. A room with loads of bunkbeds, people snoring and talking in their sleep n sleepwalking. We HAD to sleep, we needed it, so I guess we got used to blocking out noise and sleeping through almost anything! Because of all the bitching and stuff we got split into 2 groups. I was actually quite neutral and both groups talked to me and didn’t bitch about me. Phew! I was with Asa, Samara and Noodle. So throught the next few days we went to the Anne Frank museum. That was nice. Ok I guess. Didn’t get very excited about it and people were making such a big deal. Jeez! So many people died in the Holocaust, do we have to go on and on about a girl who wrote a diary? I mean she gave loads of insight about the happenings and all that but I personally do not understand the hype of it all...

We also went to the Heineken Experience. That was fantastic! Got a tour of how Heineken beer is made. Tasted it in different stages and then at the end we got a lovely iced glass of beer. I have never tasted beer that good and I’m not a beer fan! Also went through a simulator of the whole process. That was fun. We were roasted n blended and dumped in water. Fun times!
What I really, really liked was the Van Gogh Museum. I loved it! I’m not a big fan of art either but I do appreciate it when I see it. Van Gogh’s painting “Starry Night” was there for a short time only all the way from New York and I’m glad I got to see that. What really caught my eye though was another painting of his called “Starry Night over the Rhone”. Great piece of art!

 

My photograph taking skills aren't so good...

What else do we have... Oh! The sex museum! That was disappointing. Not at all modern and not very well maintained in my opinion. It was fun though. Took quite a few snaps. Loads of penises but only a wall on homosexual pornography.
If you are ever in Amsterdam I recommend having a traditional dessert they have. I cannot remember the name but they are tiny little puffy pancakes served with powdered sugar and syrup. Yummy!!

Red Light District was fun. Loads of ugly women prostituting. Honestly I found most of them not so attractive and quite plump. Fun to look at though :P I’ve heard of a blue light district which is supposedly men prostituting but didn’t find any such thing. I think I read somewhere that the blue lights are for transsexuals. Not sure.
People in Amsterdam are very gay friendly or should I say gay tolerant! There was quite a few men holding hands or standing close, than the distance acceptable by straight men, to each other. I have to say I didn’t notice any lesbians but then again they are kinda harder to spot. Quite a few gay bars, hotels, clubs and even shops branding the rainbow flag. So I guess its quite a free country. Unfortunately I didn’t go out to any of these or any straight clubs for that matter. I have to say though that I found some Dutch people quite rude and cold but I guess every country comes with its own special kind of people and way of thinking. Overall had a great time. Even sent some weed back to the UK and a week after I got it! Suck on that Royal Mail! Mouahaha! :S

I’ll leave you with a lovely sunset from the beach in Noordwijk and a fabulous, gay, summery video! See ya!

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Back soon!!

Hey guys! Once gain sorry for taking ages to update. Guess I've just been lazing around/working but haven't been online much. Got the next few couple of days off n then I'm going to Cyprus where I will update u on everything that has been going on this summer!! See ya guys!! xxx

P.S. I want a boyfriend...!!! Oh n I'm on iPhone so lets hope this works!


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